Went to my first small group last Thursday. This poor group got hit hard with my craziness. I worked all day in a day care and it was Dr. Seuss week. I showed up with blue glitter on my head and all over my outfit, but they still welcomed me. After having our wonderful meal and introducing myself it came really clear that this group understands about a heartbreaking divorce. After sharing my story about the being angry, feeling that justice has not been served and that I’m struggling with forgiving my ex husband. The group opened up and told me they completely understand. They gave wonderful advise how forgiveness is only going set me free from the bitterness and anger. I may never forget but forgiveness needs to happen and that God knows all and He knows how hurt and how hard it was to go through the divorce. I’m trying to take the steps to forgiveness and it may take some time. I struggle with forgiving myself for staying in a marriage that was destroying my spirit but also our children. It was a very unhealthy marriage and I must learn to forgive myself too.
